I've been counting down the days till my 19th. It's finally tomorrow and I can't help but feel nervous and not as excited as I was say, 23 days ago. The chance of someone very important to me not being here to celebrate is killing my mood. Even though times have been rough, I would put the fights and tears behind to have them here.

Mantra to keep emotions in check:

Don't be selfish or mean L.
Try and be happy.
It's your birthday.